One hour Paradise.

UTM was engulfed in mist starting 7am. or maybe even earlier on the last day of pre-thesis submission.

The night before UTM was already thick with mist. 

I can still remember Jimmy excitedly called us out from studio to see this 'miracle'. 

I'm not sure if it's mist, or haze. but since the weather is surprisingly cool, and no bad smell of haze, i assume it's mist?

And since we're almost done with our work, we quickly collect our stuff and went for a 'tour' around UTM.

woohoo! zombies out for fresh air!

misty FAB carpark

FAB bus stop

The whole field is gone. O.O

we're in awe for the entire ride around UTM.

Went up to Balai Cerapan. A high place where u can get an overview of the entire UTM.

and amazing, UTM swallowed by mist. yeah! 

and there are 'tissues' all over the grass.  some phenomenon we rarely have the chance to see.

close up : it's actually spider webs. will be gone once the sun rise.

After we had enough, we went for breakfast outside at Taman U.

Brr... 

These pine trees really give the feel that we're at somewhere cold.

ou yeah!

By 8.30am, most of the mist is gone. forever. :(

Trully one of the best experience ever in UTM. :D

Bliss... =)

I've always wanted to say this...

I'm actually feeling quite blissful eventhough the bf is not here with me.
because I've come to observe and realize lots of things when he is not around me.

I used to envy others, and compared him with others.

But now, the things that I envied are actually not as good as i've imagined, and that he is actually the better one.

 I sees the old us in some couple, and learned from within.

I used to feel unhappy because he won't stay up late for me.

that's why you can rarely see him in studio with me after midnight.

But now I actually prefer that he sleeps early because I don't like seeing him suffering ( he is not someone who sleeps late )

and I want to have my own private time. 

yes, we're both over the clingy phase thank god because its terrible when one is over that phase and one is not. makes u feel not loved eh.

and it actually makes him so sweet when he actually stays up late for you sometimes when you're really busy during submission time.

Totally irrelevant but I wonder if It occurs to all girls that for example, girl wants to go shopping, guy say he is tired and wants to go back. girl not happy, but wanted to be considerate, so she say ok loh, and guy sense that she is not happy so he say ok lah go shopping lah. and both trying too hard to please each other and mostly guy give up after girl insists on going back so they went back and girl end up not happy whole day long and the guy, being tired already, still have to make her happy. 

as an outsider, I see this scenario happens so many times that I vowed not to do this anymore because it's annoying. 

Why not just decide on one thing and be happy with it. 

and if you are not happy with it, say it out instead of keeping all the unhappiness inside and end up making both party not happy.

It's no wonder guys don't understand what we really want. =X

And one more example, which happens to me all the time..

bf : go where eat?

me : sui bian I ok de

bf : then go xxx eat lo

me : xxx food not nice wor

bf : .....then xxxxxx leh?

me : I hear people say not nice too

bf : ......

very mafan hor. I also think so.

but I think we are still ok on this because I don't really mind as i'm just telling him it's not that nice.

I can still dine happily there.

the best solution would be : give me 3 choices and I pick one.

and one more - keep on asking bf to buy this and that

the bf is very clear on this : earn your own money next time, don't use my money to buy not 3 not 4 things because im saving it up for our future.

harsh to the ear, but sweet to the heart. =)

and what's touching is when he'll suddenly buy not 3 not 4 things for you without you asking.

Sometimes not doing what other bf is doing doesn't mean that he love you less.

it's just that he has bigger and more important things to consider and the way of him showing his love is different.

 I may sound like im helping the guys ( stupid ), but at least i'm looking things in a more optimistic way. =)

and somehow im being quite optimistic lately...

ever see someone who are not stressed at all eventhough thesis submission is just a week away?

I didn't complain eventhough I haven't produce one board at all till now.

because I enjoy thesis. *shock*

I'm doing something I love ( i mean kids and architecture is something i've always wanted to do )

and for the first time in 5 years of architecture i'm actually happily doing things at my own pace without worrying about my grades.

I'm feeling happy and loved. =)

Maybe it's the effect of too much teh-c-peng. =P

Love vs Money

I never really thought about the importance of money, until now.

His salary is so little that he can only save just a handful every month.

Who said architects make big money. 

Well, apparently not fresh graduates right.

And so I've been wondering if I should get a job in Singapore instead.

But this means another long distance relationship.

To be frank, I'm actually doing quite well in LDR so far...

And I actually appreciate the amount of personal time I have.

But I don't really think I can do that well in maybe 3 years time apart from him.

when i brought this up, He asks me to do what I want ( going to SG ) in an annoyed voice =(

but the next day he actually said he'll buy me a membership at level up fitness and go gym together IF i come back and work *aww

If im going to work in Kuching, my salary will be as little as him.

and no, I can't think of staying under one roof with his whole family. 

( imagine parents, sister, sister in law and their baby and every weekend his sisterS will bring their kidS who will scream, cry, and u have to entertain them to play. )

Not that I hate them, but I'd prefer us alone, even if the house is small.

And I don't mind staying beside also. just not under one roof.

Ok, this is the main reason of me wanting to earn big bucks.

I want my own house! I don't want to stay with other people that im not familiar with!

So how? RM1800 per month or SGD2500 per month.

Love or money?

And I always thought that love is greater than money. how naive.

ok, maybe not.

But can I have my own house? 

with a walk-in-closet ? =D