Goodbye KRP.... T_T

@#$%&*!!!
Stupid UTM.

I HATE UTM !!!


1st of all, their stupid management is so stupid .
They let us register online for our next sem's college.
And made the website so so jam that the server was down.
And i spend 2 stupid hours trying to get in the website.

And,
when i finally able to click the college i want ( the one i'm staying now ) whc only left 25 seats by then,
The stupid stupid page turned blank n i have to log in AGAIN !!!!
so so keksim.

So it turned out that i got K12, which is way too far for me.
I dont have a car la stupid !!
so so unconvenient !
T_T


and i'll be so so far from him... T_T

STUPID UTM !!!!!!!

Where to buy a human alarm clock...?

Sometimes i feel a bit furious over the laziness inside me.
I NEED to sleep at least 8 hours everyday.
I WANT to sleep and wake up naturally...

But
whenever i set my alarm to wake up in 5 or 6 hours time,
EVERYTIME the plan failed.
Either i off the alarm sub-conciously or the alarm really didnt rings at all.
and I'll always snooze the alarm... ( and i can snooze till 2 hours )

What more to say to wake up in 3 or 4 hours time...?


What a loser.

There's only one thing that will force me out of bed.
No , not food.

IS people waking me up.
I need a human alarm.
It's effective.
and It's proven effective for so many times .
and the other thg that will force me out of bed is to plan an activity with me before hand like going out for lunch or dinner or watever...


So i started to ask people to wake me up.
Last night i asked Han Chee, and in the morning i asked him.
And i really wake up right ON TIME.

I really need a human clock.................
for this month, maybe ?

Love is Blind. He is Blind.

Is it just me or It's really true that Mr.F is starting to get 'separated' from us ?
I hang out with him together with the others at Tebrau today,
and I feel like he's not-that-close already.
I dono how to describe that feeling, but i'm sure most of us can feel the same as me. Maybe.

I do hate her for snatching him from us.
It's kinda strange to see the seat beside me empty and unoccupied.
Sometimes i just wish to bind him to his chair n prevent him from moving to the OTHER cubicle.
and i really feel like shaking him whenever i see his over-happy face wen coming back from THERE.

Yeah, maybe something canot be stopped,
But the one beside can always see things clearer than the one involved.
I distrust her.
I really do.
From all the lies she kept on telling me n others...
and even asked me to lie for her.
Evil.

I still remember how she intended to 'seduce' Ah Liang.
and kept on bragging to me that he's starting to fall for her trap.
Phui !
and i really laughed out wen ah Liang showed me her msg.
She kept on using 'i'm jealous u always bring jenny out' la...and 'u want to become my bf ha?'..' How i wish i have a bf'...when she actually ady has one.
walao...
How thick is her face ?

I still canot forgive her for wat happened at UTP.
I canot imagine WHY she has to ALWAYS show off that she can seduce EVERY GUY.
Reli reli reli tulan when she get near to Ah Jo and even cling to his arm for the whole day when she knew that im very close to him the day before.
and then come back and show off to me she talked to him.
I nearly killed her.
And didnt she always brag that she's a very good athelic?
Then why u still want to act like u're so weak and need him to give u a hand wen jump down from a levelled walkway when it's not so high at all ?
I can even jump without anyone's help.
And He told me u dont even want to let go of his arm ( yes, he borrowed u his ARM, not HAND cuz he got head to think ) after you come down.
People oso want to shake u off la, pantai !
And u cried and tell me a total different story when asked for my forgiveness.
How can i forgive u when u still tell lies to me ?


Maybe there's 0.01% possibility that she has changed,
but HAHA...what a joke...

How i wish that he is not that stupid to fall again for her.
But...

sigh...
I just wish that she'll not hurt him AGAIN.



P/s : By any chance anyone read about this and thinks i'm talking about you, pls la, I'm not talking about YOU. or HER. Don't perasan.

Architecture caused Cancer.

Read from the newspaper today that staying up late into the night will cause cancer easily.

Hmm.....







Does that mean that I'm putting my life at risk by taking this course ?
What more to say that i stay up from night till morning ?

Then i'll get cancer sooner ?




If i'm to die so soon, then why cant i value my precious time by doing what i like instead of doing this stupid working drawing everyday ?

I didnt ask for this.

I didn't mean to let things be like this.

I don't mind at all if dad are to let u study in private college or send u elsewhere.
I really don't.
I'm happy with what i have.
I'm glad for the arrangement,
for I wouldn't have met the sweet frens i have now if i'm arranged to study in college 4 years ago.


My sis told me my mum 'force' her to study F6 instead of college.
Eventhough my dad wanted to let her do college.
Reason is that she thinks my dad is not fair at all,
as he forced me to study F6 eventhough i don't want in the first place.
and caused me to waste 2 years studying science. ( he wanted me to become a biotechnologist )
and said wanted to wait for me to come back and wanted to say my dad in front of me.

My sis choosed to study F6 bcos of this.
to prevent my parents from quarreling again.

I know my sis is furious and jealous that my mum stands by me more than her,
But I didn't ask for it ok ?

I'll talk to mum...if she'll ever listen.


But hey, wat u've said just now had just hurted me, deeply.
I'm sure mum loves u the same as me.
I didn't ask to be favoured more.

@#$%&!!!

I hate people who 'berkayu tiga'.
Walao, why be with other guy when u're with him ?
U've hurt him deeply u know that ???

I seriously hate people like this !


------> ELIZABETH WONG <--------

U've hurt my best friend and i'm not going to forgive u !

U told him u're now a couple with another guy in kuching, and will couple back with my fren wen he go back kuching. WTF !
such nonsense !


You DON'T deserve him. u DON'T !!!

Stupid girl !

Kononnya want to build a trust bond...

I still cant believe it, u fall for the lie that ur roommate told u about seeing me holding hands and crossing the road with a foreign student. ( Ala to be exact ).

And kept on suan me about this.
My laptop is nearly condemned by ur 'sourness'.
I didnt hold hands with Ala ok? I'm just pulling ala to cross the road as there are cars coming n he's busy waving hand to his frens n didnt notice cars coming...
I DIDN'T hold hand wif him... T_T

You dont believe me.
U dont even trust me, do u ??
I'm sad about that.
I'm even furious about that.
But others kept on telling me i should be happy instead that he'll get jealous over this.

His roommate n Ah Liang keep on telling me He's not happy.
I'm not happy for the whole afternoon oso wat ~
In the end Liang told me they're just playing n testing him...
they told me Jo's relieved when he found out his frens are just playing with him.
If not he's 'sour' for the whole afternoon...



So, are u happy enuf that i DIDNT CHEAT ?
and hey, i'm not ur gf, so i can do whatever i like right ?
What for i have to bear all ur 'sourness' like this ?


T_T



I'm dismayed that u didnt even choose to trust me in the 1st place.

What's on my messy mind ...

I just want to release my stress, i didnt mean to make everyone worried.
I feel like like quitting this course, but that doesnt mean i WILL....
I'm just stressed okay ?

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I know u're jealous of me being close to Liang, but there's no need for silent protest okay ?
If i like u, there's nothing n no one that can change my heart.
And hey, i'm not ur gf, remember ??

'nuf said.


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I really hate doing working drawing !!!! ARGH ~~~!!!!!
I just wish i can sleep n eat n play everyday.


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Life is so complicated.
I wonder why i'm still alive ?


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The happiest moment of my life - to be in heaven close to my angel.
Thanks to Teck Ing for bringing me my angel last night.... =)

Tought Decision

This morning, my sis told me my dad wanted to let me go Australia to further my studies IF the stupid UTM will let me twin my last 2 year in other country.

But i dont thk it's possible since my fren told me we already signed contract wif UTM de day we go in....

Going to Australia is far better than staying in this lousy UTM,
And maybe i'll meet a few Ang-mohs and....*dreaming already*...

But...but...
My design is not that good...go there will be a laughing stock of the others...
And I know i'll definitely miss my frens here...
And i noe i'll miss him...



i HATE separations.


Luckily my dad didnt suggest Paris...
or else......

I have to make the toughest decision of my life...
Cuz I'm going to drool ( Paris is my dream ) and cry ( Told u I hate separations ) at the same time. *yucks*


But he said i can either choose to STUDY in Aus or have a TRIP to Paris...
heheh....

Can i choose to have fun instead???

Studio-ing

Some random pics taken in studio...

Oops...the paint tertumpah!

fast fast catch it !

It's dripping It's dripping !!!! -_-lll

Same shade with the shoe...

ooo...someone is so not happy..(click de pic to c jimmy's unhappy face on the comp screen)

Somebody shitting...

Somebody dying...

Die from vomitting shit ?? Eeww...

Just finish tidying up my place in studio...( bought new shelf n pillow neh~hehe )

can spot Jay ??? heheh....

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1st project submission

We submitted our 1st studio project 2 weeks ago..

The water-colour is by me n pencil-coulour by my roommate.
( Following the real photos taken )

and well...my sketches are so lauzy so i used TRACE, not sketch...
hehehe...
That's the good of having a monitor screen and photoshop and good tracer (me) to make every photo trace-able. hehe...

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Our presentation board - this is the ugliest watercolour i've coloured cuz no mood to colour =P


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My water colour reli is lauzy compared to my F5's .

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These are the facade design for 1st project too. Done mostly by my roommate.
I only do the photoshop part to add in trees and human.






That's all for 1st project.

Finally submitted after postponing for so long... =P

*updates*

After 1 week of continuous torturing by my project 2, i only get to know on wednesday ( 2 days b4 the supposed submission ) by one of the Malays in my workbase that the submission is postponed.

Phew !

I canot imagine if we're really to submit on that day.

My biological clock is already messed up in this one whole torturing week.
I'm like an owl already, sleeps during the day and work at night.
And my skin is so terrible...oh my, shud eat n sleep normally after this.

But still i have to submit the working drawing for plan on friday ( today ).
I reli have no heart n mood to do anymore so i just simply do and show the lecturer.

Who noes she don't want to accept it cuz it's too......well...i admit it's a lauzy piece of working drawing with the dimensions all wrong lo =P
So she said that she'll not give mark for this.
Cheh...dont want lo...
I dont care oso.......
And she says my column shud be 500x500...waseh...siao bor??
i know my construction not good but....
do i reli hav to do this ??

Adding the steel trusses is already spoiling my roof look, i dont want to add in extra columns to spoil it's look liao can o not ??
But she say muz add...
'kalau x, u fail la..i mean in idea is ok, but in terms of construction u dapat C la'
Cheh...

I'm so stresses and finally find Ah Liang to help me..
Eventhough i noe some of my coursemates are good in steel construction,
but Liang can make me understand more n giv me solutions i need.
And it turns out that my problems are all solved by him!
Yay !! Cheers to him ! love u so much ! =P
He shud have become my lecturer instead of Kak Dash...
yay yay yay !!!


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Few nights ago i was chatting wif him in msn,
and he erm...maybe it's him, or othrs playing prank..but de typing style is him *lolz*
is getting more brave in expressing...
He told me he's jealous dat i went out clubbing wif other guys.
and wen i told him no ( not all guys wat ), he happily cheered n say dat means he still got chance lo.
n then n then he said he's going to date me out to mcD dat night of the condition dat i become his gf for one nite... -____-lll ( what kind of lame condition is dat )
but then said dont want la cuz wan me to be slim... -__-lll
and say will date me nex time.


-_-llll

ok la..maybe im getting fat...
Till ah tiong give me that stupid nickname and everyone stucks with it.
And Ah Liang, Jo's roommate n him oso say lidat...
yer...
Canot blame me ma..
blame my MOUTH LA...
And blame the BREAKFASTS.
hahahahaha........
I've been going out for breakfasts early in the morning b4 going back to sleep for the past few days....
ok lo..
i eat less a bit from now on ok o not ??


P/s : i really got grow fat ar ?? x perasan pun ?? =P

=(

I went to ur place in studio this morning...
to find that ur computer is not there.


How come u moved back to ur room ?
no wonder i didnt see u online for the past 4 days.



=(


I know i know, i'm getting more and more stressed that i feel like crying my whole eyes out.

Lately whenever i see televisions showing Astro or Local programmes, I think of home.
This morning when i went to have breakfast at a market and see those old ladies happily chatting, i think of home again.

I do miss home.

I miss home.

I miss home.

My mum called just now while i'm sleeping,
I remembered her asking why i haven't called for such a long time.
and i told her im sleeping now...

oh my..wat kind of a daughter am i ??


I didnt meant to disappoint her...
I reli didnt..



I'm so messed up.



Architecture is messing me up.

Just blabbling...

It's a huge comfort to noe that someone out there is having the same thought as u.

we're both juz normal average students who are not talented in design.
we're both thinking of giving up.
and dun wan to work in this field after graduate ( which we donno we can graduate o not ).

sigh.

Average students are just so pathetic.

They're always the one un-noticed.
Trying to do our best but ppl will say u kiasu if u are too hardworking.


I want to be hardworking,
I want to improve my design too.

But i'm just too lazy to be 'kiasu'.


Funny, when i used circles, everyone says i'm copying Tiong.
I like circles too eversince i start design, just that i think it's complicated to draw so i left it out during 1st year.
If i use triangles, ppl will say i copy my roommate...
If i use square, nobody will say anything.
why ???
It's commonly used by everyone oso wat.



These ppl are reli funny....


That's why when the others say 'hey, ur design looks familiar',
I'll just tell them 'ya, Ah Tiong gave me the idea'.
He's one of those few ppl who always give me good ideas and tips, and so i owe a lot to him,
and that's why i give all the design credits to him.
And i'm not afraid to tell u TIONG GAVE ME THE IDEA.
so do you have any problem with that??

I'm not talented in design anyway.
I dont give a damn about how u see me...

I just want to finish this course as fast as i can.



and..


i still want to say these...

circle is a common shape okay ??
I'm not interested in copying other people's design.
If another person won best designer award and he used square in his design, omg, then watever i design ppl will say i copy lo ???




Duh.






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I think i'm going to die...
Kak Dash said we need to submit working dwg ( plan ) this friday too.
OMG...

How can i survive??

Tired.

I found that i'm not fit to become an architect at all...

Why izit all my design sucks ??
Why i owes design 'function follows form', not 'forms follow function' ??
I hate it when i always do things following my 'feel', and didnt do any research at all...

And i'm always stuck in the middle.

Always like that.
2nd year already and i'm still like that.

As a conclusion, I'm weak in designing.
That's it.


*sob*


This is making me so stress.

I have no appetite, i have no mood,
i Just need some company, maybe.

and maybe all i need is u...

Living with BEEs make me sick.....

The bee hive outside studio has been cleared.
But hey, did they forgot to clear the one inside studio ???
I think they better send someone to clear it soon...
and maybe they can help me to clear the one in my room too ???

or else i'll be sick again.



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Always like that.

Always push everything for me to do.

I wouldnt mind if u help to do half or at least help to present half of the 1st proj...
But no, u ask me to present all.
You said u haven't done anythg for ur 2nd proj, so wat abt me ??

Sick, and u use this opportunity to ask me do everything just bcos u're SICK.
I'm sick too last time but i din even ask u to complete the 1st proj all by urself, did i?
No !!!!

I'm sick too, you noe ?

I'm so SICK of u, then can u help me to do everything too ???

Ooooo....i'm so so so SICK !!!!!!

>_<#!

总 是 欺 负 我 。。。


你 说 你 没 欺 负 到 我 就 不 爽。。。
变态 !

讨 厌 鬼。。。!!!!


=(

pok kai already.... ;'(

I'm so RICH....

muahahahaha....

RICH

RICH

RICH !!

I love the smell of notes...mmm...

cheng cheng cheng !!!

But....

They're not mine !

NOT MINE !!!!!!!!!!

:'(

They're to be paid for the stupid measured drawings at Sumatera this June...
take these Rm500 out and yet they're gone from my hand after 10 minutes....sob sob...

exchanged for this stupid receipt which my name is writen wrongly kok...yer !

KL Trip - Day 4 ( 28 / 2 )

Last day in KL...

We took off around 12noon after having brunch at a Pan Mian restaurant near Jimmy's house.

It was delicious...yum yum !

anyone wants me to help them advertise their food ?? i'm happy to do so...hehe....

On the way back, we stopped at Seremban to buy its Famous Siew Paos for our coursemates...

yeah!

It took me a while to realise Seremban is the capital of Ngri Sembilan...no wonder so familiar cuz Sang Yong owes mention it to me wen he's studying there.

We make it back to UTM around 3.30pm...
just in time to attend the 4pm's class...

SIEN !!!!!


That's the end of our 'dream'.

Welcome back to reality.


Stupid UTM.

KL Trip - Day 3 ( 27 / 2 )

Wednesday.

The day Chiou Yann's husbands ( BackstreetBoys ) come for their concert at Surf Beach, Sunway Lagoon...

And she's so excited.
I know how she feels ;P
She bought the Rm88 ticket ( free standing ) weeks ago...

So we'll be going to Sunway pyramid that day.
All because of her. =P

Before we go, we have our lunch at a Ampang.

The famous Yong tau Hu...not bad la...

Tiong dropped us off at Sunway Pyramid while he go and find his friends at The Taylor's.

The surf Beach at the middle...they're going to drain up the water for the concert that night...

The Marrakesh street inside Sunway Pyramid

wat's so special abt that pillar?

Jimmy : 'nah, u see... i take better photos la...'

Me n Han Chee

touching up their make-ups at the toilet....

And the best thing we bought that day..

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TADA !!!

shit !!!!

i love it !

got worm inside kok....hehe...


jimmy's paint and my vomit at the back... =D

Chiou Yann leave for her BSB after that with her friends.....
It was raining around 7pm....
wa...

luckily it stops before 8pm.

her position from the stage....SO DAMN NEAR !!!!

not fair not fair !!! Rm88 compare with Rm398... =(

and guess what...her fren's fren is Angela, my ex-classmate ! wow..it's reli a small world...

While Chiou yann went off meeting her husbands, Han Chee, Jimmy n I went to have our lunch and shop some more...
and something Eerie happened...
We're looking at the map inside the shopping complex for Italiannies and after several failed attempt to find the restaurant ( we walked to and back but just cant find the place eventhought we refer to the maps several times ), the telephone ( customer service phone ) situated just on the map, rang.
We looked at each other..and after several seconds, we asked Jimmy to answer it.
and The operator asked jimmy if he needed any help.
Walao...
That means the operator has been tracking us through the CCTV for the whole time!
talk about privacy !!
but in other way, their service is reli good....
hehe...

They muz be laughing their heads off seeing these 3 lost sheeps.....

After dinner, we go n meet ah tiong and his friends to catch a movie at the cinema.
We watched Vantage Point since 'Step Up 2' are almost fully seated and only left two front rows for us...
The movie is nice and i personally like the way the director filmed this movie.
He filmed it in the views of many person, that means the actually only 23-min movie ( killing of the president ) is dragged till 1 n half hour cuz he filmed it repetitively in diff character's view.
It was funny when u see the movie rewinded itself over and over again...
but it was nice anyway...

After the movie we met with chiou Yann at starbucks.
Tiong suggested Supper after that and his friends followed suite.
While waiting for tiong's friends...we visited his frens' apartment's pool...

washing feet huh ?

We had our supper at murni in SS2. The Roti Hawaii and Ribena Special tasted great.
Everything is in huge portion and i couldnt even finish the Ribena....
It's for 2 person at least !

We went back around 2am and Tiong followed his frens back...
He'll be joining us again in the morning....