This is F*cking torturing

Oops, it's Wednesday already.
Man, I'm still stuck in my sketchup.
How on earth am i going to finish by monday???

I ENVY my roommate so much.
In fact, i ENVY other course's students.
How come they can just eat, sleep, n play everyday ?
The last time i saw my roommate do her assignment i was like "Gosh Tyan, u ARE doing homework??????!!!! omg !! "
i'm going to show off to her that i have only 2 final exam next month! muahahaha...

I know i've said this for thousands of time ady, but i still want to say it :
I HATE ARCHITECTURE !!!!!

Taking a short break.

I'm feeling so lazy despite having tons of works to do.
There's only one week left. no, 6 days left to be exact.
Can i finish everything in 6 days?
Being a perfectionist, it's hard to convince myself that i don't have much time left and i must 'curi makan' in my drawings or else i sure canot finish my work.
But i still went back to the minor part where i feel not satisfied and redraw it till i feel satisfied, even when after exporting the images, nobody wud notice anyway.
I wanted everything to be perfect, the presentation board, the drawings, the design....
I have the ideas, but its easier to think than to actually do it.

I want this i want that, but the end product usually differs a lot from what i want.
And i end up not feeling satisfied.
But when give me some extra time to do it again, i'll feel damn lazy again and ended up just showing the lousy product that i've got without doing changes.

The conclusion, i'm a lazy perfectionist who is not perfect at all.



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I feel amused when i looked at the personal msg of my archi friends in msn.
90% of them either put kill me, hang me, getting crazy, help me, vomit blood, headache, save me, i dont want to do work, bla bla bla...including me...=P

why nobody put 'i am enjoying doing sketchup / autocad / architecture ' ??? =P

I want studio submission postponed, but not Jay's new album lar!!!!!

I know i should have been doin my studio now, but i can't help knowing why Jay's album postponed till next week then release when i called Speedy just now. ( i can't sabar la ok... )

So jaychoustudio had an article saying :

In order to go against the new songs being revealed early, the album is delayed till 15th, Jay Chou stressed: "I'm doing a reverse action, I'm not compromising with the pirates, releasing it early, instead we're giving away more gifts, I'll be taking out some audio tracks and doing new rearrangements."



what the heck ????!!!!

You see la...ask u guys don't download his songs b4 he release it liao....eventhough i'm listening to it now ady
Haih.

But i reli hope is reli MORE gifts as promised.

My Birthday

Happy Bday to me Happy bday to me Happy day to me....lalala...

I'm so damn busy.... T_T

Die la, can i wish that studio submission postpone till one week later ???????

Where got bday still need to rush for submission one.... T_T

I'll update everything once i feel i got the little spare time...
I must get my residential building that i've demolished build as soon as possible !!!
Aih why i so stupid dun wan wish that studio submission can be postponed when i made my bday wish ??
Aih.....

Give me another cake to make one more wish...lalala....

Thanks to those who messaged me, call me, leave msg on frenster, dedicate a blog post for me, celebrate with me, belanja me, thankiu thankiu....
Terima kasih tuan-tuan dan puan puan sekalian.....lalala....
and for those 'kepo' one, no, Jo and i were damn busy till we got no mood n time for stage D ok...
only a small simple cake celebration.

I know the candles look like not stable aiya whatever...

But he promised me to celebrate my bady after studio submission la... =)
I'm very happy despite the heavy burden of work... T___T
I had a great night with my dear family. =D
Love u all...

Will update everything soon la...
Ciaoz~

Happy Bday to Ah Ma !!! ^^

Today is Ah Ma San's Bday.

Mummy Chiou Yann, Daddy Han Chee n Yee Wei n I, of cuz, gave her a....surprise ( izit ? I suppose Ah ma can expect dy la...She's old but she's not stupid. =P ) past midnite just now.

Ah well, I'll let the pictures do the talking
( bcos i'm damn busy wif my studio starting today...running against time..haih )

At the common room outside to light the candles...

the cake. -__-

Mummy baked that afternoon at her catering class....
Well, many tot that the colours is yucky, but dad and i think it's kinda pretty wor...
And ya, it's a leftover cake.
hahahaha...anythg oso can la, as long as got heart.


lighting the candles...

Ah ma is 22 yrs old this year...

ah ma ACTING paiseh... -_____-

she's said : 'can we off the light so that it'll look more romantic ?' -_____-

making wishes b4 blowing the candles...

and everything goes black.

Ok ok, i know i'm a lousy camera man.
I should have know that the photo will turn out like this aftr she blew the candles.
Paiseh ler...Studio made me blur blur ady....

the cake. all the candle wax dropped to the cake dy bcos we dragged the process too long outside the room debating how to give her the surprise. -___-

the cake is attacked mostly by me, dad n Yee Wei only cuz the other two think that it's yucky.
( blame who hor ? hehe )

Ah ma : ' why take my picture har ? '

They suggested saving the rest of the unfinished cake ( ya, so small oso canot finish...the cake is hard like rock. =P ) for 2mro. for my bday that is. -______-lll



And yea, that's all for Ah ma's bday....
mum n dad returned to studio to do work again after that.
and im back to room facing my roof problem again.
Damn hate studio.
haih.


Happy Bday Ah Ma, muacks ~ ^^

Jay Potato Chips !!!! wee ~!

Jay BBQ flavoured Potato Chips !!!!!!!!!

copico...what a name !

Actually i ever bought it b4 back in kuching at Everise ( selling oversea product section ), but in the packet form. I even bought 2 back then. 1 original, 1 BBQ.
But i can't keep the packaging cuz well....it looks crumpled.
And there were no tin packaging available then.


when Jay says GOOD, it means it must be really good lor....

can camwhore with Jay...yay ^^

where is my Jay ?

xin-fu-ing ~ ^^ ( and yes, i know my fringe looks very nerd. =P i cut it myself to save money )


Thanks a lot to little Jitty for the gift from China ! =)
It makes my day. a lot. =P
If i'm there sure i'll sapu all product that got Jay on it.

BIG BIG cup-cake

I just bought a cup-cake from Cheery Coco, near the bitter-gourd soup stall.

peek-a-boo...i see u, strawberry ! and i'm going to eat u !

It's Jo who noticed it first.
It looks kinda tempting with a strawberry hidden inside and sprinkled icing sugar on top and the price seems reasonable ( Rm2.90 for a big big cup-cake ) so i happily bought it back for a try.

And it's name is BIG BIG CUP CAKE. -___-

strawberry, blueberry jam, whipped cream and butter cake.

And the taste ?


Yummy ! ^^


Inside consist of HALF a strawberry ( kena tipu, it looks like one big strawberry ler... ), whipped cream and blueberry jam ! And the cake is still a bit cold and moist cuz it's refrigerated so the whipped cream tasted superb with the cake.

half only...haih. But the strawberry is big enuf. ^^

It's not too sweet overall. The sweetest is the blueberry jam. but i see no problem in eating it with the cake as the cake is not very sweet. just ngam ngam good. hehe...

I'm so going to buy it next time to ease my sweet-tooth. ^^
I do feel happy after attacking it.

The most hectic month

Im taking 5 subjects this sem and I think the lecturers has fun burdening his/her students with assignments and homeworks during HOLIDAY.

Every lecturer throw assignments to us before holiday.

Especially Jahangir. This is crazy. But i've managed to get a little hang on it now. =)

Stupid penguin is giving a test next wed. die.

Dr Alice in wonderland's history of modern architecture assignment is not fun at all too.

Damn, Frank Llyod Wright is really causing trouble for me.
And i feel a bit 'ashamed' to critique other people's buiding using Wright's theories la...
What more, i'm just a student. a weak archtecture student. -__-


Then there's english public speaking.
It might be my turn next week.
So far i've decided on the topic of scuba diving, but i haven't even done any research on it yet.
I'm bad in memorising ler...
Sigh.

Then there's measured drawing report.
I dont want to do lor...
It's only a 3-credit subject and yet we need to do drawings, reports and also the damn stupid model. ARGH~
And the submission is 1 week after my studio submission...
sigh. again.

And there's my studio project.
2 more weeks left.
And i haven't start re-build my building.
I haven't even finalise the shape n form of the 'new' building.
I don't even have a rough image of what i want.
Die.



Better just hang myself.





oh, wait.
Before i hang myself,
i need to get my Jay Chou's newest album 1st.
=P
I can't wait i can't wait i can't wait !!!!!
If i know magic, i might as well turn Jahangir into a penguin, Dr Alice into Alice in wonderland ( and hope she never wakes up from her dream ), Send Pn Jess back to seri menanti, Power failure during english class, and let Dr. K's wife give birth to a set of twin then he will postpone studio. =P

Aiya, i think i'll just turn UTM into a pile of shit.

Sunshine after the rain

I have lousy internet connection in room, and lousy internet connection in studio too.
Double sigh.

Since i'm happily settled down in my room doing work
( which is super comfortable, i can sleep n work whenever i like without have to worry nobody can fetch me back to room if i stay at studio )
I will now continue to stay in my room until final submission or maybe till the end of the sem ?

The only problem is that it's hard for me to have discussions and meetings if i stay in room alone.
Ah well, it's only a minor problem i guess.

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Well, thanks to all who've concerned a lot over me.
I admit having crying every day these few days ( and 80% is bcos of jahangir's assignment. duh )
but i've re-composed myself after having a heart-to-heart talk with Jo yesterday.
The new Jenny is under re-construction. =)
I'm foolish enough to have let all those small matters burdens me.
After all, architecture is not my 'road' after graduation.
I'm now 'excitedly' planning what i'm going to do after graduate.
Open a shop ??? xD
hmm...
becoming a housewife?

Anyway, I hope i can really regain my composure and survive till the end of this sem.
I'm looking forward to the year end's holiday now. =P

人 生 中 最 低 潮 的 时 刻

I'm in a depression mode.
In fact im feeling the down-est now in all my life.

It all started when I can't get to solve any of Jahangir's assignment questions.
And the bf is getting too frustrated with teaching a stupid girl like me and finally 'get loud' with me.
Imagine teaching till getting crazy.
That must be it.

I guess i'm just a pile of useless rubbish.
I sucks in maths.
Im never good at it, not even to say physics.
My head just won't turn.

Eventhough the bf apologized after that,
but i can never start to pull myself away from feeling depressed ever since.
I'm giving up. Eventhough it's not my style.
I'm giving up everything.
In fact, giving up my life seems to be the best word so far.
I feel like dying.
I don't have the strength to continue anymore.
No matter how much he said he loved me, no matter how many sorry he said.
I just don't have the heart to go on anymore.

I dont have any abilities at all.
Even if the bf is not good in design, at least he can calculate well.
he can still survive.
But me, what am i good at ?
crying ?
go cry with the babies then.
Duh.

I'm not good in anything.
AT ALL !