I need spark

Somehow we're getting too comfortable in the way that I do feel ok not seeing him for some time and are pretty much enjoying my 'me' time. 

Even our dating time is getting shorter because there's really not much place to go at night in Kuching.

What's more with him wanting to save money for the future thingy and sometime telling me how much he spend for the month kinda makes me feel guilty for making him spend more money on dating after im back.

Maybe it's just me.

Or maybe we need some spark to keep things fresh.

Getting comfortable is scary.

Hello!

*Brushing dust off my blog*

Sorry for the MIA for the pass few months. 

Has no good internet connection and am busy rushing for my thesis for the pass month.

But to be frank, Im just plain lazy. 

Will start blogging actively starting....well...hurmp...until I got my laptop back? ( it's dead btw )

Am back to Kuching for good.

Good news is that I can graduate this year! 

Well, not with good result due to some political issues in the faculty department but let's just brush this aside.

Has really great time with my coursemates and gosh I'm really really missing them :(

Donno why, I think I shud be happy to be able to go home. 

But now I feel that a part of me is missing.

I guess I need some time to adjust myself in my 'new' environment.

Without you guys especially my 38 gang.

You know who you are. :'(

Confession of a lazy bug

I must have gone mad..

because i actually loves doing my thesis whereas some hates doing theirs.

Maybe it's something that i've always wanted to do.

and i love designing for kids.

I dun really care if I didn't get good grades for it,

as long as im satisfied with my own work and I know i DID try...

=)

 and i dont really care if anyone feel threatened by my sudden-turn-of-working-attitude 

( im always known as the laziest and last minute person. heee )

I'm not kiasu..nor kiasi...

I'm just enjoying my thesis. 

 

 

 

P/s : I just hope the weather won't strike lightning on me because i've been rejecting a lot of things just to do my thesis.well..not that i really cared.

Home Alone

The week after Chinese New Year is the most torturous one..

I mean, it's over before you even knew it.

Not that I really like cny, I love it bcos of the holiday.

And this year's cny is a lil boring without my sis around ( she went bangkok with my relatives ).

And I really miss her :(

Because being alone at home is not that fun when spooky things happened.

First, the toilet door closes by itself when I was in the toilet and Im pretty sure there is no wind blowing behind me.

( I left it slightly ajar )

and two days after that the bedroom light suddenly off for a few seconds, leaving me in darkness.

My computer is still on at that time.

Maybe not enough power, but previously I only experience a slight dim of light, and not completely off like this *shrug

And I wonder why now... :(

Or like how the others said, everything can be explained by science...

But still...it's quite freaky.

And so for now, Im moving my laptop ( thank god I have a laptop ) to the living room, switched on the TV until my parents are back from work.

and I'm loving the environment right now..

I'm not a TV person, and the number of times I actually sit in front of the TV throughout my lifetime can be counted.

But now sitting in front of the tv I found comfort and the whole house sounds much more lively.

And I actually watch drama after drama throughout the afternoon.

And today, I actually force myself to wake up early.

Eating breakfast in front of the TV, watching local TV programmes ( No Astro bah ),

And I'm feeling quite blissful until I finished my breakfast and thinking of the work that awaits me after that spoiled my mood. =.=

I sound pretty Kiasu now...hehhh...

But I think I'm more Kiasi now...

Already 3rd Crit and I have to redo my floor plan ( the schedule says to show detailing by 3rd crit ).

So I'm off to do my floor plan now.

I don want to Re-sem. =.=

P/s : The purpose of this post is me trying to escape from reality. =.=

Idowantodothesisbah!

Itisstillcny!

to you... =)

It sucks not being able to be back at this time.

Knowing everyone is there to celebrate with you except me. T__T

Wanted to do something since one month ago, but one month is not enough. It's too ambitious.

Wanted to at least do something one week ago, but laziness overwhelmed me. =X

Wanted to at least really start doing something yesterday, but sickness visited me. =.=

and in conclusion, I didn't do anything at all.

great.

( that's what u get for having a super lazy friend. heee )

Well, maybe I can at least do something..

Wait for me to come back then =)

Happy Birthday Wan Chen!

xoxo

my only 2011 wish...

is happiness, for everyone. 

can?

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One has bad temper, another loves to complain.

and i always wonder, why can't my parents be like other parents?

you know, those who has that blissful' feel once you are around them?

Everytime I dreaded family trip...

because 'explosions' will always happen then.

one loves shopping, another loves exploring.

and bam, explosion...

one is too choosy over food, another tries hard to tolerate,

and bam, another explosion.

and im tired of trying to please both party whenever i sense one is about to explode.

Im tired of becoming peacemaker.

Im tired of trying to act happy and excited about the trip 

Are marriage that scary?

p/s : I know, it's new year..and im not supposed to feel like this..but an explosion just happened. =(

Babies! - 2nd month

For 1st month, see here!

I shall update on The 2nd batch babies first =)

These are them when they are 2 weeks old!

( photos from jean jean bcos the rabbits are in her room! )

 meow meow

 soooooooo cute!

 AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

seriously they are so cute even when they sleep!

Paiseh meow meow seems to be my fav among the 3 so I tend to post more photos on it hehehe

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Unagi - One and a half month 

 

 Fat !

He always fall backward whenever he tries to stand on his hind legs. donno wan pity him or laugh him

Unagi is now under my care. 

We give away the father - playgirl to a malay family.

It's by coincidence that when we're about to bring playgirl back from petshop ( they help us take care of him during holiday ) and this family came looking for rabbit.

And since the father looks interested in playgirl, I asked if he would like to have him for free.

And he said ok ! ( bcos the rabbits at the pet shop are very expensive! )

He has a few rabbits at home dy, and he let them hop around free in the house!

So since playgirl will be getting a new good environment, so why not let her go right. hahaha

so bye bye playgirl.

Unagi is now accompanying me in room.

And i love him so much..

He is one hell of a manja rabbit~

He loves being stroked and sayang-ed..

awww....

seee this

I guess he is really lonely without wasabi eh..

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Zhu Zhu, Checker n Meow meow - Day 26

Unagi - 1 and a half month

when brothers and sisters meet...

 hahahahaha

 anyone want to adopt?

Aren't they cute????????????

sadly we have to sell Checker and Zhu Zhu after that...

Doesn't have the heart to sell meow meow yet bcos the color combination is too rare to be found on rabbit.

and what more the pet shop only agree to take the rabbits for RM16 each.

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Unagi - 2 n a half month

 Er...He is quite heavy now but somehow this photo shows otherwise. maybe it's the way he lay down.

his cacatness - see the way his head tend to bend to the other side...( left )

Seems like it's been ages since I last camwhored with my rabbits. hee~ so...pardon me

emo sial. hahaha

That's all for the moment... =D

One hour Paradise.

UTM was engulfed in mist starting 7am. or maybe even earlier on the last day of pre-thesis submission.

The night before UTM was already thick with mist. 

I can still remember Jimmy excitedly called us out from studio to see this 'miracle'. 

I'm not sure if it's mist, or haze. but since the weather is surprisingly cool, and no bad smell of haze, i assume it's mist?

And since we're almost done with our work, we quickly collect our stuff and went for a 'tour' around UTM.

woohoo! zombies out for fresh air!

misty FAB carpark

FAB bus stop

The whole field is gone. O.O

we're in awe for the entire ride around UTM.

Went up to Balai Cerapan. A high place where u can get an overview of the entire UTM.

and amazing, UTM swallowed by mist. yeah! 

and there are 'tissues' all over the grass.  some phenomenon we rarely have the chance to see.

close up : it's actually spider webs. will be gone once the sun rise.

After we had enough, we went for breakfast outside at Taman U.

Brr... 

These pine trees really give the feel that we're at somewhere cold.

ou yeah!

By 8.30am, most of the mist is gone. forever. :(

Trully one of the best experience ever in UTM. :D

Bliss... =)

I've always wanted to say this...

I'm actually feeling quite blissful eventhough the bf is not here with me.
because I've come to observe and realize lots of things when he is not around me.

I used to envy others, and compared him with others.

But now, the things that I envied are actually not as good as i've imagined, and that he is actually the better one.

 I sees the old us in some couple, and learned from within.

I used to feel unhappy because he won't stay up late for me.

that's why you can rarely see him in studio with me after midnight.

But now I actually prefer that he sleeps early because I don't like seeing him suffering ( he is not someone who sleeps late )

and I want to have my own private time. 

yes, we're both over the clingy phase thank god because its terrible when one is over that phase and one is not. makes u feel not loved eh.

and it actually makes him so sweet when he actually stays up late for you sometimes when you're really busy during submission time.

Totally irrelevant but I wonder if It occurs to all girls that for example, girl wants to go shopping, guy say he is tired and wants to go back. girl not happy, but wanted to be considerate, so she say ok loh, and guy sense that she is not happy so he say ok lah go shopping lah. and both trying too hard to please each other and mostly guy give up after girl insists on going back so they went back and girl end up not happy whole day long and the guy, being tired already, still have to make her happy. 

as an outsider, I see this scenario happens so many times that I vowed not to do this anymore because it's annoying. 

Why not just decide on one thing and be happy with it. 

and if you are not happy with it, say it out instead of keeping all the unhappiness inside and end up making both party not happy.

It's no wonder guys don't understand what we really want. =X

And one more example, which happens to me all the time..

bf : go where eat?

me : sui bian I ok de

bf : then go xxx eat lo

me : xxx food not nice wor

bf : .....then xxxxxx leh?

me : I hear people say not nice too

bf : ......

very mafan hor. I also think so.

but I think we are still ok on this because I don't really mind as i'm just telling him it's not that nice.

I can still dine happily there.

the best solution would be : give me 3 choices and I pick one.

and one more - keep on asking bf to buy this and that

the bf is very clear on this : earn your own money next time, don't use my money to buy not 3 not 4 things because im saving it up for our future.

harsh to the ear, but sweet to the heart. =)

and what's touching is when he'll suddenly buy not 3 not 4 things for you without you asking.

Sometimes not doing what other bf is doing doesn't mean that he love you less.

it's just that he has bigger and more important things to consider and the way of him showing his love is different.

 I may sound like im helping the guys ( stupid ), but at least i'm looking things in a more optimistic way. =)

and somehow im being quite optimistic lately...

ever see someone who are not stressed at all eventhough thesis submission is just a week away?

I didn't complain eventhough I haven't produce one board at all till now.

because I enjoy thesis. *shock*

I'm doing something I love ( i mean kids and architecture is something i've always wanted to do )

and for the first time in 5 years of architecture i'm actually happily doing things at my own pace without worrying about my grades.

I'm feeling happy and loved. =)

Maybe it's the effect of too much teh-c-peng. =P

Love vs Money

I never really thought about the importance of money, until now.

His salary is so little that he can only save just a handful every month.

Who said architects make big money. 

Well, apparently not fresh graduates right.

And so I've been wondering if I should get a job in Singapore instead.

But this means another long distance relationship.

To be frank, I'm actually doing quite well in LDR so far...

And I actually appreciate the amount of personal time I have.

But I don't really think I can do that well in maybe 3 years time apart from him.

when i brought this up, He asks me to do what I want ( going to SG ) in an annoyed voice =(

but the next day he actually said he'll buy me a membership at level up fitness and go gym together IF i come back and work *aww

If im going to work in Kuching, my salary will be as little as him.

and no, I can't think of staying under one roof with his whole family. 

( imagine parents, sister, sister in law and their baby and every weekend his sisterS will bring their kidS who will scream, cry, and u have to entertain them to play. )

Not that I hate them, but I'd prefer us alone, even if the house is small.

And I don't mind staying beside also. just not under one roof.

Ok, this is the main reason of me wanting to earn big bucks.

I want my own house! I don't want to stay with other people that im not familiar with!

So how? RM1800 per month or SGD2500 per month.

Love or money?

And I always thought that love is greater than money. how naive.

ok, maybe not.

But can I have my own house? 

with a walk-in-closet ? =D