Jenny is a big LOSER...!

Sometimes i feel like a small gas girlfriend who gets angry over small stupid things.

Sometimes i feel like a lousy and left'ed'-out friend.

Sometimes i feel like architecture is not my thing AT ALL.

Sometimes i feel like i'm the stupid one among the people who can speak loud n well in my workbase.

Sometimes i feel like i am a loser.


and Everytime i feel like it's my fault, my wrong, my selfishness that caused me to feel like that.

and Everytime i know i deserves that.




there's a part of me that is dying.
from loneliness.
from stress.
from lacking of other love.
from missing out something.



If he were to leave me someday, i think i'll die.
bcos his love is the only thing that i've gained the day i started to lose other 'love' and 'fun' that i once have.


who am i to blame ?



No one but myself.



This is the 4th time that i've tried to post my true feelings up.
The previous post only lasted not more than half day until i took it down.
It's scary how being 'detached' from others can cause such a huge damage on me.
Till i dun even dare to post up my true feeling.

L.O.S.E.R